I am very thirsty get love, because be in one's childhood over there parents,experience not strong.
我很渴求得到爱，因为小时候在父母那里感受不强。
My parents is a sage model parents, they wait for a guest to still be close friends than needing oneself person, treat with age the child is affable favore again, share, courteous, self-effacing it is the job that I must want to do. They also are not the parents of differentiate dispute, be being criticized by the teacher is my fault certainly, want to think over; Be criticized by elder no matter the truth, want an apology; And with age the child fights, want to use ground of eyes firm firm to teach me. Bear, shut up, quiet, concede, cannot unjustifiable requirement, be my nurturance live law.
我的父母是圣人型的父母，他们待客人比待自家人还要好，对待同龄的小朋友是友善又偏爱，分享、礼貌、谦让是我必须要做的事。他们也是不辨是非的父母，被老师批评一定是我的错，要反思；被长辈批评不论真相，要道歉；和同龄的小朋友打架，要用眼神狠狠地教育我。忍、闭嘴、安静、退让，不能无理要求，是我养成的生存法则。
They let me feel, “ has only clever and sensible, ability can be liked. So I also was used to ” every time other is complimentary to mine, morning of morning of Home “ your home is too obedient really sensible. ” , it is such every time.来自 zUOwENbA.net
他们让我感觉，“只有乖巧懂事，才会被喜欢。”所以我也习惯了每次他人对我的夸奖，“你们家晨晨真的太听话懂事了。”，每次都是如此。
Go the parent, pa Mom should ask, mr. “ , is Shi Jingyi in the school obedient? ”
去开家长会，爸妈要问，“老师，石净仪在学校听话吗？”
The teacher says, although “ waits in achievement, but particularly obedient, do not let a teacher worry about. ”
老师说，“虽然成绩中等，但特别听话，从来不让老师操心。”
Go to kin home coming back parents should ask, “ morning morning in you is the home obedient? ”
去亲戚家回来父母要问，“晨晨在你们家听话吗？”
“ is obedient and obedient, eat what to what, hey You, you do not know my home is carried that more feed. ”
“听话听话，给什么就吃什么，哎呦，你不知道我家那个多挑食。”
Mom and aunt people chat to also want to say, “ morning morning in one's childhood although the body is bad, but be obedient. Bad to take, run almost everyday hospital, fortunately she still calculates obedient. ”
妈妈和阿姨们聊天也要说，“晨晨小时候虽然身体不好，但就是听话啊。不好带，三天两头跑医院，幸好她还算听话。”
Be like, I have this one advantage only, if I no longer sensible and obedient, without a single redeeming feature. Arrive even later, I approbated even oneself this good point that makes me uncomfortable, regard it as my good qualities in affinity.
就好像，我只有这一个优点，如果我不再懂事听话，将一无是处。甚至到后来，我连自己都认可了这个让我不舒服的优点，把它当成亲密关系里我的长处。
“ my comparing is other the woman student is obedient and sensible. ” this is how to have pity on a lamentable advantage. It is a concession at all, it is the active concession that the inadequacy that I want to make up for other side makes, but I am not worth in other side really? Without! I do not need obviously sensible, also can be loved to be liked!
“我比其他女生都听话懂事。”这是多么可怜可悲的一个优点。它根本就是一个让步，是我想要弥补其他方面的不足作出的主动让步，但是我真的在其他方面不足吗？没有！我明明不需要懂事，也可以被爱被喜欢！
But I am not self-confident, special not self-confident, occasionally a short while self-confidence must oneself or of others affirm repeatedly. Opposite party of a thing was not sure that is done badly namely, advise of the other side is err then, the other side holds negative opinion is off base then. I am met him mention lightly progress, but the shortcoming that severity criticizes him, resemble parents is right in one's childhood my attitude is same.
但是我不自信，非常不自信，有时候片刻的自信必须自己或者别人的再三肯定。一件事对方没有肯定那就是做得不好，对方提意见那就是做错了，对方持否定意见那就是大错特错。我会轻描淡写自己的进步，但是严厉批评自己的缺点，就像小时候父母对我的态度一样。
I ask myself, sensible am I happy? Without, instead very grievance. Sensible long, I discover beside the person was used to, I also lost capricious qualification, even now and then be no good.
我问自己，懂事我开心了吗？没有，反而很委屈。懂事久了，我就发现身边人都习惯了，我也就失去了任性的资格，连偶尔都不行。
But I am capricious, it is an innocent young woman student, accurate when inner poisonous tongue must be no good, not happy like roughhouse, like shopping name to say him award, think the thing that do wants to do immediately.
但我就是任性啊，就是一个不懂事的小女生，不爽的时候内心毒舌得不行，不开心了喜欢大吵大闹，喜欢购物名曰奖励自己，想做的事立刻要去做。
I ask rich elder brother, “ if my unlike is euqally sensible before, can you still like me? ”
我问博哥，“如果我不像以前一样懂事，你还会喜欢我吗？”
He replies, I do not know “ . ”
他回答，“我不知道。”
I am written in the diary, “ has sensible ability to be able to be liked only as expected. ” wants to feel incorrect next, this is my negative opinion, not be true.
我在日记里写，“果然只有懂事才会被喜欢。”然后想了想觉得不对，这是我消极的想法，不是真的。
Write afresh: I do not need “ the jubilation that subdues oneself to who denounce, I am not sensible also be worth to be loved euqally, I can love myself forever. ”
重新写：“我不需要委屈自己讨谁的喜欢，我不懂事也一样值得被爱，我永远都会爱我自己。”(文/小石头)